I've been feeling very ambivalent lately. Part of me wants to be a bum and just sit back, relax and enjoy life. The other part of me wants to do something, anything, write, read, make movies, make money, be secure now and in the future. Now is the time to establish myself to get discovered and do whatever it is I dream of doing, but now is also the time I am able to sit on my ass and not end up broke because of it. Bleh.